Merry christmas son, and everyone else, the dreaded day is here. I do not know why this day is worse than any other, it isn't really, it is just the build up to it when every one else is so cheery and chirpy, the day itself is just like any other. Going to be having the first xmas dinner since you left, Claire and Tam are having it because it is Kyra's first christmas so we are going in for our dinner, don't feel like it but you will be there anyway. Hope you do not have to work today it must be horrible for people if you have to go and bring someone young over today. Billy McNicol died yesterday, think I am still in shock, my heart goes out to them all. Better go before I start, I have lit a candle for you and Arran and will take your lanterns up to the cemetry today and light one up there for you, speak to you soon, love mum xxxxxxxxxx